I rarely do any posting on my private Facebook page, but I debuted my guest post from bphope.com on both my private and public page, yesterday. I was overwhelmed by the response, all of them positive and encouraging. I feel really good about my decision to come forward with my diagnosis, as scary as it was (and still is).
The work is nowhere near completed. It’s only beginning. I will be tested from all sides, I know. I will have to deal with ignorance and negative stigma (see my post, “Facing Ignorance, Yet Again“). But it’s all part of the journey. If it was going to be easy, then it wouldn’t be worthwhile, right?
I finished writing my piece for next month, even though I’m thinking about sending something else in this place.
To be honest with you, despite how good I’m feeling about the direction that everything is going, personally with myself today I don’t feel too well. I’m not depressed or anything, but I’m missing one of my meds because the refill haven’t came in, yet. While I take two mood stabilizers, I think they are supposed to balance each other. I haven’t had one of them in a few days because I ran out, so I’m starting to feel off. Even with the meds I take to sedate me, I still feel off and like I’m not fully getting adequate rest. But I’m pushing through today, though.
But that’s not why I’m here. I’m really here to talk about how amazed I am by the response. I even got a chance to talk to someone I haven’t talked to in years. Also, I check the responses on the blog’s Facebook page and the blog itself, and I see that it really did provide some kind of inspiration, even if it’s just a small bit. That makes me feel good. It makes me feel great about what I’m doing.
Once again, thank you for listening to me, even if you’re not following this blog. Thank you for taking a second to check out my message and my work. As long as I know I have an audience that I’m helping or entertaining, I will continue to have the motivation to do this work.
I’m going to try to get myself a little rest. Later…